“There will always be someone willing to hurt you, put you down, gossip about you, belittle your accomplishments, and judge your soul. It is a fact that we all must face. However, if you realize that God is a best friend that stands beside you when others cast stones you will never be afraid, never feel worthless, and never feel alone.”
― Shannon Alder
I always fought to find harmony in everything I was doing, and I imagined my life like stringed instruments, where a lower or higher vibration would take me out of tune. Unfortunately when your life is a violin, you can’t change it in a trumpet and the only thing I could do was to adjust. Imagine how many times the ones around made me go under tune, when felt lost and worthless I let everyone around to make me think that I am not enough. Over-tuned I haven’t been many times because I had enough influence around me to keep me down and made me feel alone. From inside I found all the power I need it, and the same as a volcano I turned myself from weak to strong. When I needed strength, an invisible force gave me the power to straighten my cords and to attune my strings, and to find harmony and peace. Once I was able to do that, no matter how many times I was in the middle of a gossip, judge, or someone who tried to put me down I knew that I have the power to bring back the harmony I need it. We are vibrating as stringed instruments, and when we are under tune, a little strength would lift us back where we belong to be.
“Confront the dark parts of yourself, and work to banish them with illumination and forgiveness. Your willingness to wrestle with your demons will cause your angels to sing.”
― August Wilson
Down there, in the lower esteem, I found a comfortable and miserable place. Low Self-Esteem was my biggest enemy that always whispered in my ears that rotten roots would never be able to turn back a half-dead plant in a tall and strong tree. Unable to trust my own opinion, looking for acceptance, overthinking, afraid of challenges, emotional and anxiety was part of my life for a long period of time. Life on Earth can suck sometimes. Then I realized that we all have flaws, and being imperfect is not the worst thing that can keep me down but accepting to remain there does. I understood that all my glitches are just derivations from perfection. Once we fail with something, that brings us closer to a perfect one; whatever is not perfect is still close to completion. I am not a defect, I am just another step for perfection, and that just happens to not be me today. Without me, it would not get the final perfect product, so I am more important than I thought, so that brought me full self-acceptance. I fought my demons, I understood my place and I accept it. That moment brought me harmony, and my strings played once again the beautiful song of peace.
“Insecure people only eclipse your sun because they’re jealous of your daylight and tired of their dark, starless nights.”
― Shannon L. Alder
The bishop is a long-range chess piece that can be surprisingly powerful if properly deployed, and only if he acts like one. With low self-esteem, the powerful bishop transforms into a pawn that only can move one step forward and is exposed in the front line. With high self-esteem, the bishop can dream of being the king, but he is the most hunted from all the pieces from the board. Being who you truly are, brings you not only stability and confidence but you can be the most powerful only when you are in your own powers. It wasn’t always easy to understand that looking at me and accepting myself with all my flaws would actually boost my self-esteem and would make me appreciate everything that I couldn’t see until that moment. I found in me the strength to overcome obstacles, the love to embrace nature and every living being, the soul and spirit that brought in me the faith, the knowledge, and the intellect that made me ask questions when everything seemed false. I am a little bit of everything, and in perfect harmony, I am the one who would play the most peaceful and powerful song that I need to hear for the rest of my life on Earth.
I welcome you to follow the tale of that young lady who fought with her insecurities from her lower-self, found the middle way, and ascend for her higher self in a world and time where everything started to shift for a new perspective of life on Earth…
….continue reading the rest of the tale in PART 32