“I’ve told you the four thunderstorms – disappointment, frustration, unfairness and isolation. You cannot avoid them, as like the monsoon they will come into your life at regular intervals. You just need to keep the raincoat handy to not let the spark die”― Chetan Bhagat
Many times we find ourselves in isolation, apart from friends and family, only with our dark thoughts and disappointment in our souls. I tried many times and not succeed, and many more I wanted to give up or I had to let it go. Every shocking news I got in my life came out of nowhere, and the first instinct I had was to rejected it altogether. It was impossible to even comprehend such terrible feelings of loss, disappointment, and nevertheless to realize that depression was waiting around the corner. But the walls felt off, the damage was done and everything I wished and hoped was gone. Sitting on top of ruins with everything shredded along with my heart, I felt I had to do something. Out of nothing I had to rebuild an empire, bigger than the previous one, on top of ashes and with bare hands. That is what I called “having some skills”! I previously learned that time started after the BIG BANG, and the fire was discovered using two stones, and also after a volcano life gets back to life from bare rocks. With that in mind, is easy to believe that only one spark can ignite a whole forest, and with one spark of hope I trusted the Universe that would never let me down as long as I don’t choose to stay down there, and I haven’t.
“Certein bodies… become luminous when heated. Their luminosity disappears after some time, but the capacity of becoming luminous afresh through heat is restored to them by the action of a spark, and also by the action of radium.”― Marie Curie
In my life on Earth, my examples from nature guided me through all my writings and my experience, and this time, I want also to choose a model from nature. A dried bean doesn’t sprout until favorable conditions, also some animals stay in hibernation, aestivation, or torpor for a specific period of time and in favorable conditions resume their lives. To get back to their normal life, plants and animals need a sign, something to let them know that a change happened and it is safe to grow or resume their behaviors. A dried seed or animals need just a spark of light or warmth to resume their lives. We, as humans, also need a spark of something to get our soul in the comfort stage. We keep inside of us everything we need to grow and to succeed, and the only thing that would ignite that is the hope that never really dies. I thought I lost hope when everything was falling apart, but for some reason, it was enough a spark to remember that nothing vanishes as long as I will stay alive. My body was the temple that stood strong and kept the combustible and my mind was the spark I needed to turn on back everything I could possibly achieve when nothing seemed to count anymore.
“I knew that I was dying.
Something in me said,
Go ahead, die, sleep, become as them, accept.
Then something else in me said, no,
save the tiniest bit.
It needn’t be much, just a spark.
A spark can set a whole forest on fire.
Just a spark.
― Charles Bukowski, The Last Night of the Earth Poems
There is always a choice, and it was always up to me to decide which way I should go, what is best for me or just to conceive and give up. When I lost everything it was shocking in the beginning but later on, after acknowledging new opportunities it was easier to decide what I had to do. Like an empty room that you need to be redecorated after everything disappeared overnight, a brand new life and a new chance were unfolding in front of me. One spark, one dream, a wish, and the hope made everything possible. It would be funny to say that, but in the end, I had a very tasty chicken soup. In the beginning, everything was lost, and then I had to start all over again, growing and chopping the vegetables and the chicken. Everything was ready but was nowhere to find a fire, and that took time also to get everything ready. One spark, the wood burned and everything started to have a taste and in the end, one big bowl of chicken soup was ready to fill up the hungry and empty stomach. The same happens with an empty and hungry soul that needs to be filled with nutritious things. For that, I had days of meditations and praying, long walks in nature, friends, family for support, and a lot of patience that took over my whole loss and failures.
The influence I had from others saved me before, and today I return everything I know for you. Many days I dreamed that one day my story would be a survival kit for someone that goes through the same as me and sharing good vibes and understanding might light the spark in someone else. I needed examples and true stories to realized I was not the only one going through hard times, but today I am here grateful and happy for everything I could overcome. I surrounded myself with kind people and understanding friends that have been there for me when I needed them the most and I learned a lesson from every experience I had. Today is your time to move on and leave behind whatever doesn’t serve you. As long you keep that spark in you, always your life would be filled up with hope and your soul would never be left empty and hungry.
I welcome you to follow the tale of that young lady who found the spark of hope in her life and continued her journey on Earth stronger and powerful than ever been before…
….continue reading the rest of the tale in PART 30